First of all: I am sorry for not blogging in May and most of June. Those of you who follow me on Twitter know that I was busy with school, studying and figuring out the next steps in my life. I don't want to talk about that, I'm keeping this for another post.
For me this year has been all about taking risks. I decided for myself a while ago that I can only, truly, be happy if I do whatever I like without caring about other opinions. I wear things I would have never worn last year, I get braver and braver when it comes to fashion. Some items in my closet are out of my comfort zone and I when wearing them I have to be very confident about myself and my body, but at the end of the day it was worth it, because I did that for me. I do not know who many times I have heard "Are you really gonna wear this?" or "You sure you want to buy this?". YES YES YES, I am, I do.
I want to walk around with a back pack while going shopping. I want to wear these colorful shoes no one likes. I want to wear lipsticks in different shades and colors and I want to have strong eyebrows.
But my life isn't only fashion and make-up, that's just smart part that makes me, me. I want study abroad, alone, without my family or friends close. I want to meet as many interesting people and travel as many places I can. I want to spend a lot of money I should have saved for "more important things". I want to be a little bit stupid. I want to live the moment and not think about all the scary things that growing up brings along. I want a second tattoo, with a important meaning. And I want to sit by the ocean, my favorite thing to do.
This post might seem a little bit odd and it is very unstructured. I wanted to share some thought with you and let you know that behind these words there is a 20 year old girl, who's life isn't just structured, just because her posts might be sometimes. I am like you. I have hopes and dreams and plans and wishes.
I can't wait to share my summer with y'all and focus on my blog and my little blogspot world.
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xx,
L.
